Saturday, June 30, 2012

Friday, June 29, 2012

என் ரோஜாப்பூ
உறுதுணணயாய் இரு

- philoism
No one had ever loved her the way I have.
There was always doubt rooting in her mind.
Yet how I loved her.
And still do.

- philoism

Thursday, June 28, 2012




http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/201913
I go about my day
Talking, laughing, working, eating
Two things I try to avoid
Thinking and breathing
If I think then all my thoughts go to you
If I breathe then all my breaths are for you
Ironically, these things I cant avoid.

- philoism

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

There is no use in fighting with all our might
For things that we want for ourselves
It tires the mind, body and soul
Give up on fighting
Believe in one true God
He who charts our destiny
He who knows what is best for me
What is meant to be mine will always be mine
What is meant to be will always be
What is meant for me will always be for me
Trust that He has a plan
A plan of which makes no sense now
A plan which will make perfect sense someday.

- philoism
ஒரு தேவதூதன்

oru devathai paarkum neramidhu
migha aruginil irunthum thooramithu
ithayamey oh ivalidam urugumey oh
indha kadhal ninaivugal thangadhey
adhu thoongum pozhudhilum thoongadhey
paarkadhey oh thendralum oh ketkadhey oh

ennai enna seidhai penney
neram kaalam marantheney
kaalgal irandum tharaiyil irundhum
vaanil parakiren
enna aagiren engu pogiren
vazhigal therinthum tholaindhu pogiren
kathal endral oh polladhathu
purigindrathu oh

kangal irukkum kaaranam enna
ennai naaney ketteney
unadhu azhagai kaana-thaney
kangal vazhudhey
marana nerathil un madiyin orathil
idamum kidaithal iranthum vazhuven
un pathathil mudigindrathey
en saalaigal oh

indha kadhal ninaivugal thangadhey
adhu thoongum pozhudhilum thoongadhey

oru devathai paarkum neramidhu
migha aruginil irunthum thooramithu

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

உங்கள் பிரிவால் துயருறுகிறேன்
நீங்கள் எனக்கு வேண்டும்
நான் உன்னை காதலிக்கிறேன்
ஊழி யூழிக்காலம்
எப்போதும்

- philoism
♥Ask - Turkish
♥Laska - Slovak  
♥Amour - French/Spanish
♥Ai - Chinese
♥Ast - Icelandic
♥Liebe - German
♥Ahava - Hebrew
♥Bolingo - Lingala
♥Cinta - Malay
♥Ishq - Arabic
♥Meile - Lithuanian
♥Love - English
♥Ishtam - Telugu
♥Premam - Malayalam
♥Pyaar - Hindi
♥Kaathal - Tamil

Monday, June 25, 2012


Our souls meet in dreams.
There is nothing anyone can do.
They have stopped searching.
Ever since they found each other.
In the end.
They will unite.
In this world or the next or the next.

- philoism

Midnight approaches
She waits
Watching me
I feel her presence
Yearning for me
I rise to take her hand
She smiles
We embrace
Our hearts touch
Melting into one
Inseparable
Daylight approaches
She knows
Another night has passed
Our hearts split
Hers in mine
Mine in hers
A tear is born
She whispers
I'll be waiting. I love you
Forever.

- philoism


Ive known it from the moment that we've met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

- Adele

Friday, June 22, 2012

I've Been Dreaming Of A Special Place
Somewhere Only You And I Know
Where Only You And I Go.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012



Do you know what it is to be a lover? To be half of a whole?

No?

I'll tell you a riddle. You're waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you; but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter. How can it not matter to you where that train will take you?

Because you'll be together.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything, you know my feelings
It never crossed my mind that there would be a time
For us to say goodbye, what a big surprise

But I'm not lost, I'm not gone
I haven't forgot

These feelings I can't shake no more
This feeling's running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around

These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again

Remember when
I remember when it was 'Together till the end'
Now I'm alone again, where do I begin?
I cried a little bit, you died a little bit
Please say there's no regrets and say you won't forget

That was then, now it's the end
I'm not going back, I can't pretend

Remember when
These feelings I can't shake no more
This feeling's running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around

These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again

- Avril Lavigne

Monday, June 18, 2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0tr2wNn_4s&feature=youtube_gdata_player

This one. Just for you.

-philoism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4b3bNGudpCU&feature=youtube_gdata_player


Sunrise doesn't last all morning
A cloudburst doesn't last all day
Seems my love is up
And has left you with no warning
But it's not always going to be this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away

Sunset doesn't last all evening
A mind can blow those clouds away
After all this my love is up
And must be leaving
It has not always been this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away

All things must pass
None of life's strings can last
So I must be on my way
And face another day

Now the darkness only stays at nighttime
In the morning it will fade away
Daylight is good
At arriving at the right time
It's not always going to be this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away
All things must pass
All things must pass away

- The Beatles
Sometimes...
What may be the best thing for you to do
Sometimes it the hardest thing for you to do
And thats real
Cause I know that I love you
I know how I feel about you
But I also know that don't make everything alright
And for that reason
I got to say goodbye

Tell me have you ever been
In a situation where the best thing you could do
Is the hardest thing you've ever done
But you try to do whats right
And I know that deep down inside
That I really wanna be there by your side
But I can't stand to see you cry
Not when its because of me

There's no one in this world that can ever take your place
All the love that we share, it can never be erased
And I know that, that it hurts so bad
And its so that, that you're the best I've had

- Jagged Edge

Friday, June 15, 2012

If you cant endure the piercing ice shards of time
Never stand beneath the castle of frozen patience
If you cant sit beneath a tree full of unripe apples
Never look up beyond its leaves tasting its sweet red fruit
If you cant touch a flaming coal of heart
Never utter the words forever upon love's oasis

- philoism

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Are you ready,
To meet again,
To stay together.

To walk our walk,
Sing our song,
With no need to ask whys and hows,
Or seek any answer.

Are you ready,
To face yourself
And love another.

Are you ready,
To abandon land of borders,
And open the gates,
To the kingdom of unconditional love.
To loose sense of self, your identity, your face,
And stay faithful to your own heart.

Are you ready,
To embrace death
At the end of the sunset,
And come to life,
By beginning of each dawn.

If you are,
Then appear with a smile,
That no change could touch,
With a heart,
That only sings,
Songs of love.

If you are,
Bring a gift of your promise,
Promise your presence, your now.

I ask you one last time,
Are you ready to be whole?
To be One.

If you are, take my hands,
And join the dance within my soul.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

31. Increased intuitive abilities and altered states of consciousness:
Thinking of someone and immediately hearing from them. More synchronicities. Having sudden insights about patterns or events from the past. Clairvoyance, out-of-body experiences, and other psychic phenomena. Intensified sensitivity and knowing. Awareness of one's essence and that of others. Channeling angelic and Christ-consciousness energies. (De-ja-vu's. Ive been here. Seen this. Felt this way. Have I lived here before?)

Advice: Listen to your heart. Your passion leads you to where you must go. Go within and ask your Higher Power, "What is it you would have me do?" Watch for synchronicities. Listen.

32. Feeling closer to animals and plants. To some people, animals now seem to be more "human" in their behavior. Wild animals are less afraid. Plants respond to your love and attention more than ever. Some may even have messages for you. Seeing beings of other dimensions. The veil between dimensions is thinner, so it is not surprising. Just stay in your sovereignty. You are more powerful than you can ever imagine, so do not entertain fear. Ask your guides for help if you slip into fear. (Is that why I feel "things" over this past year more than I ever have? And I have a feeling "they" know I am present)

33.Left -brain fogginess. Your psychic abilities, your intuitive knowing, your feeling and compassion, your ability to experience your body, your visioning, your expressiveness all emanate from the right brain. In order for this side of the brain to develop more fully, the left brain must shut down a little bit. Normally the left-hemisphere's capacity for order, organization, structure, linear sequencing, analysis, evaluation, precision, focus, problem-solving, and mathematics dominate our often less-valued right brain. What results are memory lapses, placing words in the wrong sequence, inability or no desire to read for very long, inability to focus; forgetting what you are just about to say; impatience with linear forms of communication (audio or written formats); a feeling of spaciness, being scattered; losing interest in research or complex information; feeling bombarded with words and talk and information; and a reluctance to write. Sometimes you feel dull and have no interest in analysis, lively intellectual discussion, or investigation. (Im so out of focus. And there is nothing in particular im thinkin of. Its just nothing. No mood to do anything most of the time. Blame it again, on PMS)

Advice: You may discover that if you allow your heart and your right brain to lead you, the left will then be activated appropriately to support you. And someday we will be well-balanced, using both hemispheres with mastery.

34. Dizziness. This occurs when you are ungrounded. Perhaps you have just cleared a big emotional issue and your body is adjusting to your "lighter" state. (So, its not low blood pressure)

Advice: Ground yourself by eating protein. Sometimes "comfort food" feels right. Don't make any food right or wrong for you. Use your guidance to know what you need at any given moment. Take your shoes off and put your feet in the grass for a couple of minutes.

35. Heart palpitations. A racing heart usually accompanies a heart opening. It only lasts for a few moments and means that the heart is re-balancing itself after an emotional release. A huge heart-chakra may be opening. There is nothing wrong with your heart. (I get this during the day time, like my heart is squeezing itself tightly and releasing after 1-2 seconds)

Advice: Remember what I said about getting medical attention when needed. Consult your doctor about any conditions you are not comfortable with.

36. Faster hair and nail growth. More protein is being used in the body. (My hair has grown out very quickly. Its quite surprising how long it is after a year)

Advice: Too bad we can't tell the body where to grow the hair and where not to grow it. (Or can we? Hmmm.)

37. A desire to find your soulmate or twin flame. More than ever before, the idea that we can have a relationship that matches who we are seems more desirable. (There is someone out there for me. Made especially for me. When the time is right we will join each other again.)

Advice: The truth is, we have to be the kind of person we want to attract.
We have to love ourselves and where we are right now before we can attract a more "perfect" mate. The work begins at home. Here is how I think it works: Hold the desire for this person in your heart, but without attachment. Expect that someday you will meet someone who is more suited to you, but let go of any expectations as to who this will be and how it will happen. Focus instead on cleaning up your own life and being the kind of person you want to be. Be happy now. Enjoy your life. Then you may see.

38. Memories surface. Body memories, suppressed memories, images of past lives and/or parallel lives. We are healing and integrating all our "selves", so expect to have some of these experiences. ("I have been here before" memories sometimes attack me when least expected)

Advice. Keep in mind that it is best to recall what only what comes to mind, leave the rest alone, don't analyze everything to death (because you will be stuck in the tape loop of infinite issues to process), and feel your feelings as they come up.
21. Introspection, solitude and loss of interest in more extraverted activities: This stage has come as a surprise to many extraverts who formerly saw themselves as outgoing and involved. They say, "I don't know why, but I don't like to go out as much as before." (I dont want to go anywhere or do anything. Dont ask me why. Its just like that. Now shoo!)

Advice: Be quiet and listen. Sleep. Rest.

22. Creativity bursts: Receiving images, ideas, music, and other creative inspirations at an often overwhelming rate. (Bursts of interest towards certain type of music, drawing more often)

Advice: At least record these inspirations, for Spirit is speaking to you about how you might fulfill your purpose and contribute to the healing of the planet.

23. A perception that time is accelerating. It seems that way because you have had so many changes introduced into your life at an unprecedented rate. The number of changes seems to be growing. (Too many things to do, I dont have time. Im growing old. What am I doing?)

Advice: Breaking your day up into appointments and time segments increases the sense of acceleration .You can slow time down by relaxing into the present moment and paying attention to what's at hand, not anticipating what's ahead. Slow down and tell yourself that you have plenty of time. Ask your Higher Power to help you. Keep your focus on the present. Try to flow from one activity to the next. Stay tuned to your inner guidance... You can also warp time by asking for it. Next time you feel rushed, say, "Time warp, please. I need some more time to -----." Then relax.

24. A sense of impendingness. There is a feeling that something is about to happen. This can create anxiety. (Something is going to happen. I dont know what it is. But its happening. Oh gawd!)

Advice: There is nothing to worry about. Things are definitely happening, but anxiety only creates more problems for you. All your thoughts, positive or negative, are prayers. There is nothing to fear.

25. Impatience. You know better, but sometimes you can't help it. You want to get on with what seems to be coming your way. Uncertainty is not comfortable. (What does the future hold for me? Ive been thinking so much about this and its killing me. Will I ever find my purpose in time before I die?)

Advice: Learn to live with the uncertainty, knowing that nothing comes to you until you are ready. Impatience is really a lack of trust, especially trust in your Higher Power. When you focus on the present, you will experience miracles -- yes, even in traffic.

26. A deep yearning for meaning, purpose, spiritual connection, and revelation. Perhaps an interest in the spiritual for the first time in your life. "Constant craving", as k.d. lang says. The material world cannot fulfill this longing. (I seek God in everything. Im not a spritual person or God fearing but recently I dont see how else to go about my day without the Lord to show me what I am supposed to do)

Advice: Follow your heart and the way will open up for you.

27. A feeling that you are somehow different. A disquieting sense that everything in your life feels new and altered, that you have left your old self behind. You find a spiritual track that makes sense to you and "speaks to you" at the most profound levels. Suddenly you are gaining a perspective that you would never have considered before. You hunger to know more. You read, share with others, ask questions, and go inside to discover more about who you are and why you are here. (Who am I? I know that I need to be happy first before making anyone else happy)

Advice: You have left your old self. You are much greater than you can possibly imagine. There is more to come.

28. Invisible presences. Here is the woo-woo stuff. Some people report feeling surrounded by beings at night or having the sensation of being touched or talked to. Often they will wake with a start. Some also feel their body or bed vibrate. The vibrations are caused by energetic changes after emotional clearing has taken place.
(When I sleep, there is a vibration within me as soon as I fall into deep sleep)

Advice: This is a sensitive topic, but you may feel better blessing your bed and space around it before you sleep. Rest assured that you are surrounded only by the most magnificent spiritual entities and you always safe in God's care. Sometimes, however, the fear gets to you, call in Archangel Michael. Don't beat yourself up for being afraid sometimes.

29. Portents, visions, "illusions", numbers, and symbols: Seeing things that have spiritual importance for you. Noticing how numbers appear synchronistically in your awareness. (I dream of numbers. Quite oddly numbers which have a significance to something)

Advice: Everything has a message if you take the time to look. Enjoy the experience of "getting the messages." What fun!

30. Increased integrity: You realize that it is time for you to seek and speak your truth. It suddenly seems important for you to become more authentic, more yourself. You may have to say "no" to people whom you have tried to please in the past. You may find it intolerable to stay in a marriage or job or place that doesn't support who you are. You may also find there is nowhere to hide, no secrets to keep anymore. Honesty becomes important in all your relationships. (Dont ask me why Ive never said it before about the way I feel. Im saying it now. Take it as it is)

Advice: Listen to your heart. If your guidance tells you not to do something, speak up and take action. Say "no". Likewise, you must also say "yes" to that which compels you. You must risk displeasing others without guilt in order to attain spiritual sovereignty.
More symptoms:

14. Power surges: All of a sudden you are heated from head to toe. It is a momentary sensation, but uncomfortable. In contrast, some people have felt inexplicably cold. I have experienced both. You may experience waves or currents of energy rolling through you. Sometimes the energy seems so intense when it first comes into the body that you feel a little nauseated. But if you think of the energy as divine and let go of fear, you feel wonderful and enjoy the sensation. If you are an energy worker, you may have noticed that the heat running through your hands has increased tremendously. This is good. (Hot and cold flushes. Blame it on the weather)

Advice: If you are uncomfortable, ask your Higher Power, that if it be for your best and highest good, to turn down/up the temperature a bit.

15. A range of physical manifestations: Headaches, backaches, neck pains, flu-like symptoms (this is called vibrational flu), digestive problems, muscular spasms or cramps, racing heartbeat, chest pains, changes in sexual desire, numbness or pain in the limbs, and involuntary vocalizations or bodily movements. Some of us have even had old conditions from childhood reappear briefly for healing. (Aiyo aiyo all of these things and I swallow pills)

Advice: Remember to seek medical help if you need it! If you have determined that this is not a medical condition, relax in the realization that it is only temporary.

16. Looking younger. As you clear emotional issues and release limiting beliefs and heavy baggage from the past, you are actually lighter. Your frequency is higher. You love yourself and life more. You begin to resemble the perfect you that you really are. (I am 30. Not 25. Thank you)

Advice: Yippee!

17. Vivid dreams. Sometimes the dreams are so real that you wake up confused. You may even have lucid dreams in which you are in control. Many dreams may be mystical or carry messages for you. And in some dreams, you just know that you are not "dreaming" that what is happening is somehow real. (Dreams of which I am somewhere else but somehow the place is familiar, people in my dreams are so real. As clear as day)

Advice: You will remember what is important for you to remember. Don't force anything. Above all, stay out of fear.

18. Events that completely alter your life: death, divorce, change in job status, loss of home, illness, and/or other catastrophes -- sometimes several at once! Forces that cause you to slow down, simplify, change, re-examine who you are and what your life means to you. Forces that you cannot ignore. Forces that cause you release your attachments. Forces that awaken your sense of love and compassion for all. (Strong feeling of throwing everything away for the sake of being me. I just want to be me)

Advice: Do it.

19. A desire to break free from restrictive patterns, life-draining jobs consumptive lifestyles, and toxic people or situations. You feel a compelling need to "find yourself" and your life purpose, now! You want to be creative and free to be who you really are. You might find yourself drawn to the arts and nature. You want to unclutter yourself from things and people that no longer serve you. (I miss who I am. I am here for a greater purpose and until I know what that is, I will not give up)

Advice: Do it!

20. Emotional and mental confusion: A feeling that you need to get your life straightened out--it feels like a mess. But at the same time you feel chaotic and unable to focus. (Sigh. Help me!)

Advice: Put your ear to your heart and your own discernment will follow.
For a while now, Ive been experiencing some things in my life; emotions or lack of it, things I cant explain. It may seem that I am experiencing something known as "Spritual Awakening". Here are the symptoms:

1. Changing sleep patterns: restlessness, hot feet, waking up two or three times a night. Feeling tired after you wake up and sleep off and on during the day. There is something called the Triad Sleep Pattern that occurs for many: you sleep for about 2-3 hours, wake up, go back to sleep for another couple of hours, wake again, and go back to sleep again. For others, the sleep requirements have changed. You can get by on less sleep. (I have been waking up at odd hours of the night (3am, 4-5-ish) staring at the ceiling wondering what am I doing here)

Advice: Get used to it. Make peace with it and don't worry about getting enough sleep (which often causes more insomnia). You will be able to make it through the day if you hold thoughts of getting just what you need. You can also request your Higher Power to give you a break now and then and give you a good, deep night's sleep. If you can't go back to sleep right away, use the waking moments to meditate, read poetry, write in your journal or look at the moon. Your body will adjust to the new pattern.

2. Activity at the crown of the head: Tingling, itching, prickly, crawling sensations along the scalp and/or down the spine. A sense of energy vibrating on top of the head, as if energy is erupting from the head in a shower. Also the sensation of energy pouring in through the crown, described as "sprinkles". This may also be experienced as pressure on the crown, as if someone is pushing his/her finger into the center of your head. (In the past couple of weeks I have felt as if someone is putting pressure on my forehead, which I brushed aside as a headache. No amount of medicine takes this pressure off)

Advice: This is nothing to be alarmed about. What you are experiencing is an opening of the crown chakra. The sensations mean that you are opening up to receive divine energy.

3. Sudden waves of emotion. Crying at the drop of a hat. Feeling suddenly angry or sad with little provocation. Or inexplicably depressed. Then very happy. Emotional roller coaster. There is often a pressure or sense of emotions congested in the heart chakra (the middle of the chest). This is not to be confused with the heart, which is located to the left of the heart chakra. (I can sit at my desk and just cry for no reason, like my tears are meant for something or someone out there)

Advice: Accept your feelings as they come up and let them go. Go directly to your heart chakra and feel the emotion. Expand it outward to your all your fields and breathe deeply from the belly all the way up to your upper chest. Just feel the feeling and let it evaporate on its own. Don't direct the emotions at anyone. You are cleaning out your past. If you want some help with this, say out loud that you intend to release all these old issues and ask your Higher Power to help you, release with ease and gentleness. Be grateful that your body is releasing these emotions and not holding onto them inside where they can do harm. One source suggests that depression is linked to letting go of relationships to people, work, etc. that no longer match us and our frequencies. When we feel guilty about letting go of these relationships, depression helps us medicate that pain.

4. Old "stuff" seems to be coming up, as described above, and the people with whom you need to work it out - or their clones, appear in your life. Completion issues. Or perhaps you need to work through issues of self-worth, abundance, creativity, addictions, etc. The resources or people you need to help you move through these issues start to appear. (Same shit different day. Square one. Nothing moving forward)

Advice: Same as #3. Additionally, don't get too involved in analyzing these issues. Examining them too much will simply cycle you back through them over and over again at deeper and deeper levels. Get professional help if you need to and walk through it. Do not try to avoid them or disassociate yourself from them. Embrace whatever comes up and thank it for helping you move ahead. Thank your Higher Power for giving you the opportunity to release these issues. Remember, you don't want these issues to stay stuck in your body.

5. Changes in weight. The weight gain in the US population is phenomenal. Other people may be losing weight. We often gain weight because many fears we have suppressed are now coming up to the surface to be healed. We react by building up a defense. We also attempt to ground ourselves or provide bulk against increasing frequencies in our bodies. (Weight loss/gain between of 5kgs in 2-3 weeks)

Advice: Don't freak out, but just accept it as a symptom of where you are right now. You will release/gain the weight when all your fears have been integrated. Release your anxiety about this. Then you might find it easier to lose/gain the weight eventually. Exercise. Before eating, try this: Sit at the table with an attractive place setting. Light a candle. Enjoy how the food looks. Place your dominant hand over your heart and bless the food. Tell your body that you are going to use the food to richly nourish it, but that you are not going to use the food to fulfill your emotional hungers. Then pass your hand from left to right over the food and bless it. You may notice that the food feels warm to your hand even if the food is cold. If you have forgotten and you have nearly finished eating, bless the food anyway. Another thing you can do is to stay present while eating -- don't watch TV or read. Heartily enjoy what blessings are before you.

6. Changes in eating habits: Strange cravings and odd food choices. Some find they are not as hungry as they used to be. Or hungrier. (Bacon and cheddar chips with creamy dip? Chicken curry with rice and ketchup? Peanut butter and cheese sandwich? Yoghurt with chilli powder and salt?)

Advice: Don't deny what your body tells you it needs. If you are not sure, you might try muscle-testing before you chose a food to see if it's what your body wants. Also try blessing the food as described in #5.

7. Food intolerances, allergies you never had before: As you grow more spiritual, you are more sensitive to everything around you. Your body will tell you what it can no longer tolerate, as if it, too, is sloughing off what doesn't serve it anymore. You might be cleansing yourself of toxins. Some people find they often have a white residue in their mouth, much like that of runners at the end of a race. (All my life I have never had eczema, not until about a year back. It comes and goes as often as it likes and I related it to stress)

Advice: Remove this film by sloshing 2 tablespoons of cold-pressed olive oil in your mouth for 10-15 minutes (don't swallow, whatever you do), then spitting it out into the toilet, not the sink, for you just removed toxins from your body and don't want them in the sink. Brush your teeth and do the same. Then clean your brush.

8. Sight: Blurry vision, shimmering objects, seeing glittery particles, auras around people, plants, animals, and objects. Some report seeing formerly opaque objects as transparent. When you close your eyes, you no longer see darkness, but a redness. You may also see geometric shapes or brilliant colors and pictures when eyes are closed. Colors appear more vivid, the sky might look teal or the grass an amazing green. Often I see grids running across the ground. As you become more sensitive, you may see shapes or outlines in the air, especially when the room is almost dark. When your eyes are open or closed, you may see white shapes in your peripheral vision. (I see glittering sparkles when I look at certain things. They float about like dust particles but they illuminate. When I close my eyes and concentrate, I see a white bright light in the middle of the darkness. I think maybe Im going blind)

Advice: Your vision is changing in many ways -- you are experiencing new ways of seeing. Be patient. Whatever you do, do not be afraid. Hazy vision may be relieved by yawning.

9. Hearing: Increased or decreased hearing. Other symptoms are hearing white noise in the head, beeps, tones, music or electronic patterns. Some hear water rushing, bees buzzing, whooshing, roaring or ringing. Others have what is called audio dyslexia, you can't always make out what people are saying, as if you can no longer translate your own language. Some hear strange voices in their dreams, as if someone is hovering near them. You can either ask the presence(s) to leave or ask Archangel Michael to take care of the situation. Again, there is nothing to fear. (I hear a white noise very often like there is electricity around somewhere then I look for the source but there isnt anything emitting charges anywhere. Getting old, I say)

Advice: Surrender to it. Let it come through. Listen. Your ears are adjusting to new frequencies.

10. Enhanced senses of smell, touch, and/or taste. I notice I can now smell and taste chemical additives in some foods in a rather unpleasant manner. Other food may taste absolutely wonderful. For some people, these enhancements are both delightful and distracting. You might even smell the fragrance of flowers now and then. Many of the mystics did. (This explains the sweet smell that I get at my desk these past week. Its like there are fresh flowers at my desk every morning. Its a little scary if you dont know why this is happening)

Advice: Enjoy it.

11. Skin eruptions: Rashes, bumps, acne, hives, and shingles. Anger produces outbreaks around the mouth and chin. (Stress causes an outbreak of skin irritation around my neck, arms and I pass this off as eczema)

Advice: Heal from the past. When you have worked through most of the issue, the condition will be released. You may be sloughing off toxins and bringing emotions to the surface. When there is an issue to be released and you are trying to repress it, your skin will express the issue for you until you process the emotions. Work through your "stuff".

12. Episodes of intense energy which make you want to leap out of bed and into action. Followed by periods of lethargy and fatigue. The fatigue usually follows great shifts. This is a time of integration, so give into it. (Cleaning the house non-stop one minute then lying down and not wanting to move at all just like that)

Advice: Roll with the nature of the energy. Don't fight it. Be gentle with yourself. Take naps if you are tired. Write your novel if you are too energized to sleep. Take advantage of the type of energy.

13. Changes in prayer or meditation. Not feeling the same sensations as before. Not having the same experience of being in contact with Spirit. Difficulty in focusing. (Walk into church and tears flow from my eyes instantaneously. I can pray just about anywhere and talk to God like he is just there)

Advice: You may be in more instant and constant communion with Spirit now and the sensation may therefore be altered. You will adapt to this new feeling. You are actually thinking acting in partnership with Spirit most of the time now. You may find your meditation periods shorter.


L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

- Nat King Cole

Tuesday, June 12, 2012



"Within your male soul mate energy essence, there abides a certain frequency that is indeed identical to the same frequency found in the female soul mate energy essence. There are identical frequencies existing in the opposite bodies of energy, and these you call twin flames.."

Monday, June 11, 2012




"Out of the original unity of being there is a fragmentation and dispersal of beings, the last stage being the splitting of one soul into two. And consequently, love is the search by each half for the other half on earth or in heaven..."

Friday, June 8, 2012

Twin Flame

An overwhelming sense of love and attraction.

A sense of completion that goes beyond words.

A magnetism to the other stronger than anything you have ever experienced.

You will complement one another.

The ability to literally feel one another whether you are with or without your partner.

A feeling that you are so close you just might feel related - like a brother or a sister.

A complete and total breakdown of your lives as you knew them upon finding one another.

The power to touch the other without physical means from great distances.

Over the course of your life you may have dreams of a "mystery man/woman."

Synchronicities will be abundant. You may find yourselves calling, emailing and texting one another at the exact same time. You may also find yourselves buying each other the same gifts.

You may feel your heart wanting to jump out of your chest at the sound of his or her voice.

The ability to feel each others emotions, whether they be happy or sad ones, from great distances.

The ability to contact one another through meditation and have the same experience together.

The desire to be with one another no matter what the obstacle blocking your way.

The ability to dream of your partner in their current state and verify the accuracy of that dream, later.

You may notice the ability to collapse time as you knew it. Upon your coming together, time itself will cease to exist.

When you and your partner are out and about, you may notice the eyes of everyone are upon you. Your love for one another will shine so greatly, that it is not uncommon for the eyes of everyone to be upon the two of you.

You may find yourselves completing each others sentences, sometimes even before you have the chance to begin them.

Upon connecting with your twin flame or soulmate, you may find that you are practically mirror images of one another and that you may want to even run from your partner because of the things you see in yourself from the reflection of his/her eyes.

If you currently live apart, (even at great distances) you may notice the power to be sexually intimate without ever even physically touching the other.

You may notice that any of your bad habits, ie. smoking, drinking, or whatever they be, will adversely effect you. Even in your diet, food that you used to be able to eat, will have to be set aside.

You may find that certain dates in your lives, ie. birthdays or the even the day you met, will fit perfectly into the Fibonacci Sequence or the number 11 11.

A realization that this isn't the first time the two of you have met... Past life experiences!

If the both of you are artistic, you may discover that you have been drawn to the same tastes in art or have been drawing the same symbols long before your Twin Flame reunification.

The individual twins become more as one, without losing their unique identities

There may be obstacles to overcome but there are no barriers between twin flames. The relationship is a totally open one.

You may meet through unusual circumstances that were totally unplanned and unexpected.

The two of you know without doubt that you have been brought together for some spiritual purpose.

It feels as though you have been awakened since your reunion occurred. You feel more alive than you've ever felt.

You give to the other and never think of receiving in return. Giving is the nature of the twin flame relationship and you feel the rewards in your giving.

There is a very sacred sense of intimacy and feeling of divinely inspired wholeness that one finds within a twin soul relationship. It is not by accident nor is it without purpose. Rather, it is a magnificent and loving part of our Creator’s plan for us.

The relationship is immediate, as though no time had been lost since you were last together.

There is a strong sense you will be together for all eternity even when you pass on in this life.

You still have karma with your twin from previous lives, but the two of you resolve it all with total forgiveness and unconditional love.

Your conversations seem to go on forever. There is nothing you won't discuss with your twin flame.

There is nothing hidden between the two of you. You don't hide secrets. You are truthful and respectful to one another.

There is no need to build walls or barriers between one another from pain or fear the other causes. Your twin will treat you like someone sacred.

The two of you are inseparable. No matter if there are distances between you physically there is no distance for the twin souls.

Neither one of you are dependent on the other for your sense of self. You know who you are with or without your twin flame in the physical.

Your sexuality with one another is a sacred act that celebrates the unconditional love you have for one another. You feel a deep spiritual oneness with The Creator.

Trust, patience and acceptance of each other’s weaknesses happen automatically. You will never use that weakness against your twin in anger or hurt.

There is a special sacredness to your relationship that transcends anything you’ve ever experienced before.

You feel a deep sense of sacredness and unity with God that you’ve have never known before.

There are no restrictions within the relationship. All is freedom without the need for ownership or control.

You will feel inspired to create and your twin flame inspires your creativity.

You do not compete with one another nor do you pretend to be other than who you are. You love each other for their individuality and uniqueness. You understand that some things are better left to your twin's strengths rather than competing.

You recognize there is a deeper spirituality that you manifest and will find your higher self. You will gain knowledge of what your souls higher purpose is and will serve for that purpose.

In spite of your sameness, there is no doubt you feel a sense of completion through the other.

You will recognize you two are Godmates. You will know you are one with everything in the universe and beyond.
When we sleep, our souls leave our bodies and enters another space.
In that space, I am with you.

- philoism
Somewhere.
In some other time.
We must have been very close.

- philoism

Wednesday, June 6, 2012



why are the flamingos doing that?

- philoism

Tuesday, June 5, 2012



look at how gorgeous she is.

- philoism
I am a strong woman.
I am capable of operating heavy machinery.
*presses random buttons on photocopier*

- philoism


you are with me.
every moment.

- philoism

Sunday, June 3, 2012



goodnighty.
see you soon.

- philoism


this love.
will withstand the sands of time.

- philoism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rs77bxltBbs&feature=youtube_gdata_player


good morning world.

-philoism

Saturday, June 2, 2012



sleepless.
goodnight sweetheart.

- philoism


mum came to visit.
have to fold all the laundry O.o'

- philoism

today.
feed the dogs treats & buy pet food.
i buy pet food more than my own food.

- philoism

Friday, June 1, 2012



memories like the iridescent colours of bubbles.
a special date for me.

- philoism