Sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes it hurts instead

I always dreamed that my life could be like a fairytale. A perfect fantasy.

Nothing you say can change the way I feel about you. My body, mind and soul is devoted to you. You stole my heart and ever since I have nothing else but emptiness. Nothing in this world can fill that void. Being intoxicated all day makes me see you. You who materialize from my broken heart. I love you. Forever.

Stood up with a headache..
Sat me down in the shower closing my eyes..
Imagined you behind me holding me close to your beating heart..
You tell me it will be alright..
You whisper I love you baby..
My heart bursts with love for you..
Then you vanish..
I need you..

- philoism

Its not even late but
There is nothing to lose
When all you have is gone away
Nothing to gain
So down with it I say
People think that you can forget
When the bottle is done
The mask is only temporary
When you wake up so does the pain
Doesnt make a difference anyway
Theres nothing to lose when all you have has gone away.

- philoism

I lie in my bed,
Images of you run in my head.
I lie in my bed,
Replaying all the words you said.

Tears rush down my cheeks,
Memories of you make me weak.
Tears rush down my cheeks,
Everything seems dull and bleak.

I can't help but to weep,
Therefore I cry myself asleep.
I cant help but to weep,
This pain is just too deep.

And when I awake,
I feel my heart break.
And when I awake,
I beg the Lord my soul to take.

Still under the cover,
Knowing me and you are over.
Still under the cover,
Wondering why the hell am I still sober.

Holding back my tears,
Wishing you were here.
Holding back my tears,
Wishing you were right here.

I thought you were the one for me,
But I guess it wasn't meant to be.
I thought you were the one for me,
Never changed my mind about who we could be.

Getting ready for the pain to start,
Smiling to cover my broken heart.
Getting ready for the pain to start,
I smile though the cracks in my heart.

Crying inside all day,
Wondering why you did me this way.
Crying silently all day,
Wondering if you would ever come my way.

Took a deep breath and held it for as long as I could
Is this how it feels to lose my breath for you?
Shut my eyes and you are there in front of me
Is this how it feels like to see you stand right there?

Opened the palm of my hand and felt its emptiness
Is this how it feels like to want your fingers clutching mine?
Wished that my heart would stop beating
Is this how is feels like to love you eternally?

Felt the tears well up and filled my eyes
Is this how it feels like pouring my love for you?
Embraced the wetness of each teardrop tracing my cheeks
Is this how it feels like to want your kiss?

I l o v e y o u a l w a y s

Im not sorry to have met the one I was made for. I am not sorry to have loved you with all of my being. Im not sorry that I still love you right this very second. Im not sorry that I will keep on loving you forever. Im not sorry that everything around me reminds me of you. Im not sorry from the moment I gave you my heart. Im not sorry for the days we spent together, side by side, just you and I. Im not sorry.

like waves to the shore
part of the ocean
the stars high above
part of the sky

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

like the air that i breathe

u'll always be there
the wings that i need
when i wanna fly

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

I give my love to you. Its yours. If only you will receive it. I give my heart to you. Its yours. If only you will receive it - philoism

Without you
I breathe without living
I eat without tasting
I look without seeing
I hear without listening
I love without knowing
I sleep without dreaming
I talk without thinking
I walk without moving
I cry without caring

- philoism

You will never be alone. I am right beside you in the sea of flames - philoism

They say the day will come but no one knows when. The day when there will be no moon, no sun, no stars and it will all be black. It will all just go back to the way it was before. For me that day is today.

True love never has a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is the most painful way of saying I love you

There is no love without truth and there is no truth without love - philoism

Of all the times you thought you had lost me, the truth is I had lost you - philoism

All I know is that I love you
All I know is that you are all that I think of
All I know is that I can't stop thinking about you
All I know is that you are made for me
All I know is that I could not imagine any other in your place
All I know is that you are the one ive been waiting for
All I know is that I was made for you - philoism