Im a tiny dot in a corner. Nothing matters, everything hurts. I can't do anything right. I stare into space and my mind is blank. I can't remember anything except the fact that I can't remember anything. I can't cry anymore and I remain bitter and cold. I kill my emotions. Im locked up in this dark hole and drinking doesn't help, it just takes the pain away for a little while. Everytime I think of something that makes me happy, it doesn't make me happy anymore but a feeling of loss and emptiness. I don't desire to be in love anymore, the thought of it causes anxiety because all I know is that love causes tears in the end. And I am all out of tears. I am not worthy of anything or anyone.

When does this end?

- philoism